Many of you may have journeyed with me through my various jlogging adventures (journal blogging for those newbies - you will realise I am a great maker-up of words, especially those ending with "ness" that I like to think I've somehow coined!) ...
But here I find myself, 3 months to the big 4-0 and more excited and ME than ever before... hence the titled of this chapter of my jlogging exploits being called "This is ME!" I have done my various advent calendar series along the way and the "Rediscovery of Poonam" in 2022, all with the same aim of sharing where and what I am as I mission to find out who I am, as I hopefully inspire, motivate and allow others to discover and own and claim and be the best versions of themselves too.
I'm proud and excited to share that I can confirm that something does happen along the way! I'm not sure if it's when you turn a certain age, or maybe when you've been through a lot in your life as I, and many others around me have. It certainly makes one wiser, harder, stronger, and if you allow it - also gentler, kinder and a bit more understanding, empathetic and compassionate. More than ANYTHING however, and the thing I am most grateful for, it makes us own our ME-ness or YOU-ness... so this is your friendly reminder to:
Celebrate YOU and your YOUNESS everyday! You are the only one-of-a-kind that is and ever will be ~ Poonam
In this age of modernisation and perfection, we have somehow lost the ability to be real, vulnerable and share honestly and openly. Facebook and Instagram not to mention TikTok and the spans of other outward facing sharing platforms portray this "happy-go-lucky" world where pain, hardship, suffering and the other side of life is barely shown and God forbid - shared. Movies, series, magazines, tabloids and other media sources showcase the perfect, thin and cellulite-free women, happily ever after couples and the fallacy of the nuclear family that is more of an anamoly that not. Please don't get me wrong, I'm truly not trying to tarnish or trash what is, but just trying to open a portal to what is not and could possibly be...
For me, it's been this notion that I am not enough. I am not pretty, smart, thin, talented, worthy, or beautiful enough... just not good enough. It's that we always need to be striving, aiming, perfecting, modelling and aspiring to more and better and bigger and and and.... and even when we do achieve, that imposter syndrome sets in and we feel guilty or not worthy of our joy and hard earned happiness or success.
And so, as I've gone through the journeys and rediscoveries, I have to share - it's all just brought me back to square one - which is "ME!" But older, stronger, wiser, more mature with healthy boundaries (definitely another post on this to come..) but that "I am enough"... just as ai am... Who I am in this moment in time, on this day is enough. I am where and what I'm meant to be (and again, don't get me wrong, it doesn't mean that I don't have dreams and goals and aspirations, but that I am who I am, and proud and happy and content with what and who I am. Right now. In this moment and time.) If you need another reminder, look up at the quote above... you and I are the only one-of-a-kind that ever is, and ever will be! Let that sink in for a while..and read it again if you have to😎
Maybe it's that I've lost my dad, my mom, my husband, and a big part of my dream life in Cape Town in the period of less than a year to make me realise that it's not those outward things that define one, but being true and authentic to you. You, yourself and YOU! So as I embrace my "Me-ness", I hope that you will join and embrace your own "YOUNESS" on this journey called life as I invite you to journey with me on this new and exciting voyage...
So "you are invited" as the title of this post so aptly is called, to engage, talk and adventure with me in this chapter of my ME-ness as we share openly and honestly about all those lovely and those not so lovely and easy things that so many avoid talking about - death, divorce, debt, disease, distress - interesting how they all start with the D-word - another title of a series I wish to share in the new future. So watch this space, and let me know what else you want us to talk about and share as we explore the dark AND light side of life... and I can't wait to do and share my "40 to 40" coming soon..
I wish you all so so well. So much joy, happiness, sunshine and love on your path ahead and all else that you need right now. Till then my lovelies and friends, so much sunshine and light your way, today and always...
p.s. so watch this space as I plan to share at least a post a week for now until "The D-word" series starts as well as my "40 to 40"... have a lekka weekend everyone.
Much love, and for the love of wisdom always. Poonam
11 August 2023, East London, South Africa
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